Updated September 2018: Where do I begin? This blog began as a weight-loss journey blog and has now grown into what I like to call a “life-gain journey” blog. You’ve been with me through my high and low weights as well as high and low moments. Through pregnancy, postpartum mental health struggles, weight loss, and more.
A bit about my journey: I joined Weight Watchers in August 2010 weighing in at 226.2 pounds (I had previously lost ~10 pounds on my own, making my highest weight ~235 pounds). I left Weight Watchers in June 2014 and began using MyFitnessPal at that point. I have also struggled on and off with depression, anxiety, and an eating disorder (ED-NOS), all of which is both a product of and a producer of my weight issues. It’s a complicated cycle, huh?
In 2015, my husband and I decided to have a baby! I committed myself to documenting the changes in my body in an open and honest way so that others could get an idea of what pregnancy after major weight loss can be like. Then, in May 2016, I had my daughter and fell into the pit of severe postpartum anxiety as well as mild postpartum depression and OCD.
In 2018, I decided to confront my disordered eating and body dysmorphia head-on. I began seeing an eating disorder dietician and working with therapists who specialize in eating disorder treatment and trauma. I also turned my focus to fitness for the first time — having never really exercised while losing all of this weight.
Through it all, I’ve tried to speak about even the scariest things, because I truly believe that nobody should feel ashamed or alone with anything that they are experiencing or feeling. I’ve spent too many years feeling that same utter loneliness and, in my shame, avoiding life; I want to spend the rest of my time on earth living and loving fully.
For those interested, you can also find me on Instagram @saladflambe